Current mood:

sad

Reminders (revised)
Something inside of me is crying. I can't seem to understand why. It's as though a part of me is trying to whisper to my heart. But I don't want to hear those words, not yet. Because the pain is still here and I'm waiting for the end. This pain is all I have left.

He took my hand, and watched the stars and moon with me. Gently kissing away my tears of regret. He whispered all the sweetest words and my heart lifted every time. But my mouth couldn't say them in return. Now it's too late, and he's gone and I can't find my way. Find my path that leads me back to him.

This pain is our link, the chain that keeps me bound. I never want to forget all my tears. Because if I let him go, then all we have are memories. The memories left to fade and disappear. I don't want to let him go! I don't want to move on because each step is a reminder he's not here.

So please leave my heart alone. I don't want to heal, I don't want to forget. I want to stay with him in this pain, don't come inside and try to take him away. My tears are shared with him and my heart is beating, but not. I have no breath to take anymore. I don't want to share my pain, because it's the only bond that’s left.

Just leave me here, with dead leaves of hopes and dreams. Let me scatter to the clouds above, my bones to dust, and my memory a whisper. Just let me go back to him. I was never alive except in his arms. Please release me from your chains, let me return to his arms. I need to tell him so many things.

This pain is our link, the chain that keeps me bound. I never want to forget all my tears. Because if I let him go, then all we have are memories. The memories left to fade and disappear. I don't want to let him go! I don't want to move on because each step is a reminder he's not here.

I don't want him to die inside me again. So please leave me here, with my beloved in the in the winter of my heart. The tears held behind my smiles are slowly breaking apart. I've been so strong till now, but you're trying to take me away. Away from the only happiness I've known. Let me remain with my reminders.